i'm that girl

I'm the girl that always knows what to do, yet is terrified of the future. I'm the girl that likes to have control, yet never realizes when she looses it. I'm the girl that studies a social science, yet writes like crap; the girl that likes to be the best, yet doesn't work as hard as she should; the girl that faces the world with a brave face, yet crumbles easily. I'm the girl that has an opinion about everything, yet has a hard time following her own advice; the girl that loves her friends more than her life, yet can easily push them away; the girl that has dreams bigger than mountains, but hates change. I'm the girl you call dominant, smart, talkative, sweet, helpful and loyal, but also timid, clumsy, foolish, bitchy, self-centered and overly emotional.

I'm the sort of girl that will always make you feel better about your mistakes, but will reprimend herself greatly for hers. I'm the girl that sets the bar higher for herself than for the rest, yet never manages to become that perfect being she yearns so much. I'm the girl that pours her heart out in her relationships, yet is confused when she winds up hurt. I'm the girl that has cheesy and old fashioned ideas about romance, yet doesn't believe in Prince Charming; the girl that can never shut up, yet is always lending her ears to listen to other's problems. I'm the girl that has a hard time talking about her feelings, yet her emotions are most of what she is; the girl that is always looking into the future, yet has a hard time letting go of the past; the girl that will always find mistakes and flaws in everyone, yet is blind when it comes to realizing that things are taking a wrong turn in her relationships.

I'm the girl that is always searching, yet is afraid of her discoveries. I'm the girl that can easily dislike a person, yet can't live knowing that somebody dislikes her; the girl that has picked herself up from the floor many times, but each time she falls to the ground she feels like she will never be able to get up; the girl that is such a good actress she sometimes ends up believing her acts; the girl that can change her mind very easily even though she values commitment highly and gets mad when people change theirs. I'm the girl with the competitive, fierce and driven spirit, that can become submissive and mellow with just one sweet word whispered into her ear; the girl tha only wants the best for those around her yet can come off as too aggressive and dictator-like often; the girl that thrives for power, yet has learned the hard way that sometimes you just have to give it up.

I'm the girl that can be silly and dead serious, the girl that can laugh loudly and cry her heart out, the girl that can be your best friend and your worst enemy, the girl that you have a hard time knowing but will always remember, the girl that takes things too seriously, the girl that will dance in the rain just because, the girl that you love and hate, the girl that will take your breath away, the girl that will steal your heart...