Happy New Year everyone!!
It's been some eventful twelve months, wouldn't you agree? 2010 was certainly nothing like I expected, or wished for during the twelve chimes of January 1st at that, but looking back, it's been one hell of a ride. Last New Year's I was still struggling with my effin stubborn feelings for a certain guy, school had taken a turn for the worst and I felt empty, incomplete, even a little depressed for the first time in my life. To be honest, the only reason I was looking forward to a new year was just so I could leave all those crappy moments behind. Looking back through my old posts, most of them are either me ranting angrily or being all whiny and depressed. I can't say it was the worst year ever, but if I made a ranking, 2009 would definitely be in the top 5. So with that precedent, I had nothing left but hope that 2010 would bring something better. And you know what? It really did.
It started off a bit shaky, but as the monhts went by 2010 really brought it home. I managed to pull my grades up during the last semester of the year, and I proved to myself I had what it took to do the impossible task: straight A's in college. I also managed another seemingly impossible task: convince my stubborn heart that being in love with a gay guy would never bring something good. I can now say I have no romantic feelings for Suerp Boy anymore, and I proved that to myself by going out on more dates than ever before. Sure, I still haven't found a guy good enough to let him stick around, but I'm no longer on the endless quest to prove to the world (and myself) I'm not going to end up as an old spinster with twenty cats just waiting around for me to die so they can eat my corpse. I also managed to land a nice social service, that while proved I am no good anywhere near companies or something remotely similar, at least provided me with a chance to do something I've never done. And it may connect me with a job in the future, but I'll get back to you on that one. I am also pretty sure 2010 was the year I went out dancing and hung out with friends more than ever in my life, which is great considering I also managed to do well in school, so does that mean I have finally found the balance between work and play? Well, I hope my subconscious took note because I have no idea how I did it.
The only crappy aspect in my life was back home, but hey, that's always been crappy so that wasn't a shocker. I can safely say almost all areas of my life kicked ass this passing year, which is way more than I expected. It feels nice, looking back and remembering all these awesome things, to the point where I kind of want to go back in time and relive them. But then I think about the even awesomer things 2011 will bring, and then I'm beside myself with anticipation. Who knows, maybe this year I can materialize all my dreams, land a decent job, find a decent guy and begin mentally preparing myself for graduation, and well, you know, the real world. So this is it for the emotional rant, and while I can assure you ladies the awkward time that make up my life and somehow end up being so entertaining in writing will not end (because really, fate just loves whacking me in the face every now and then), I think I'm greeting the new year with a whole new me, a much more confident, unattached, mature Christina.
And I think things are just about to kickstart. :)
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